Spare Parts

I've always been the type of person who enjoys being part of a project. Whether it be the one initiating everything, coordinating anything, facilitating something or forming part of a group of things, but one way or another, simply being involved...Just the idea and the feelings of knowing that you play a role in the happening of something that matters to someone...anyone...or maybe even everyone...Either way, I have always enjoyed being involved. I suppose you could call it a lack of attention, or a want to be wanted, but whatever it is, I have it.

And of course things couldn't be better for a person who needs to be needed, especially in a world filled with dissatisfied needs, and even more so, someone who enjoys building and bonding in relationships, since those are the types of projects that usually last the longest, require the most maintenance, and will always have capacity for another need...But unfortunately, like every other avid contractor, project manager and all-rounder team player, who all dread a single acronym in the world of construction and projects...D-I-Y...And the phrase "I can do it myself"...

No there is no " I " in "TEAM", and certainly not an "M" or "E" in "Unity"...So why then is it, that when emotions become unstable, and when a partner loses the drive, the ego boost, the utility belt in the 'Project', do the letters in "Relationship", curiously change to "D-I-Y"? And now suddenly I find myself feeling excluded, feeling un-involved, feeling like the last thing you find in a building project...Yes, all of a sudden I find myself simply feeling like "spare parts".
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