Dé Ja Who?

Have you ever stopped and wondered about certain moments in your life, where you feel like the winds of change are blowing, like things are finally moving forward, that finally things are different, right until the time you find yourself blowing into a familiar space, surrounded by familiar faces, wrapped in the same thoughts and feelings you once had before, then stopping to realize that all at once, you’ve simply gone around in circles, in your mind and in your life, where your past has simply entered your present and everything that is happening all happened once before...? Well? The feelings are simple, and the process the same, the moment of history is just life’s little game of teaching you something and telling you this, that it’s time to step off the old tracks of life, which kept you going around and around, and it’s time to make a few new tracks of your own, headed in who knows which direction, as long is it took you to any place but here.

The mistakes in our lives are made without cause, under the worst circumstances, with perhaps good intentions, but lack direction. But the one thing mistakes teach us, is how to grow, how to recover, how to become who we were meant to be, who not to be, where not to go, which directions to take, which barriers to break, which fears to get over and which goals to climb under. The problem is, we get so swept up in the thoughts and feelings we felt whilst going through this amazing process, though tiring and daunting as it may seem, the feeling of loving and learning is indeed overwhelming and exhilarating, but they can only be used and felt once by a single source, and must then be left behind so that we can move forward and build on from there...But for some reason, History loves to find a way to repeat itself, as if our feelings of repression and regret have rubbed off onto time itself, so in an attempt to fix a past, it simply repeats itself in an attempt to bring the moment, the place, the picture, the person, the memory back from the dead, hoping that we can shape it and change it, and find some kind of solace within ourselves. But after exhausting ourselves over and over again, we soon realize that there are some mistakes that cannot be undone, some histories that must remain history, and Dé Ja Vu is simply a process of learning, teaching us to let live and let go...

Yes...sometimes in life we must learn to walk past our Past and move forward beyond the fear, beyond the regret, beyond the “what if” that we so blindly delude ourselves into believing. Sometimes we need to learn that life begins when you learn to let go, forget the past and remind yourself of a future, a better beyond, behind the past, ahead of the present...simply by saying “goodbye”...